The Merfett

Merfbaby is 33 weeks!

It’s getting closer and closer!

How I’m Feeling: So, last week was a little cray-cray. Thus, why this post is coming a week late. I’m tried, but more from work than pregnancy. I feel good, pregnant-wise. I haven’t blogged about it much recently but I work in the Film/Tv Industry. Both Merfman and I do. I currently work for a writer/showrunner and we just started back on the 5th Season of Community. Cool? Totally. Stressful? Heck yes. We did 2 months of work in a few days. It was nutty, but we did it. I didn’t get as much sleep as I should have, but we made it. Things are calming down now which I’m thankful for.

Belly/Weight: SO preggers. I’m bumping into desks and things all the time. Sorry, Merfbaby. Weight is still normal. I look back at older photos of me and it’s funny to see me without this belly.

Life Changes: Work changes. I just recently moved from one office to a new one on the studio lot, where we’ll be for the next few months. I don’t know how it’s all going to work when Merfbaby arrives, but we’ll figure it out. If you had bet me a million dollars that I would be back here working on Community, you would be a million dollars richer. I NEVER thought this would happen.

Movement: He’s head down now, and pushing hard on the left side of my pelvis. It’s a really funny feeling. He’s pushing to get lower and lower.

Sleep: Didn’t get much sleep last week, but what I did get was awesome! I slept hard! I’m having to prop my tummy up with a pillow since I wake up some mornings and the top of my abs are sore.

Cravings: No time for cravings! Merfman did take me to In N Out on Saturday for lunch and I was a very happy girl. I even got a Chocolate Shake :)

Exercise: Lots of walking and going up and down the stairs. I’ve been on my feet most of the week at work, not much time spent at my desk. No formal “exercise” but lots of moving around.

Favorite Pregnancy Moment this week: My Mommy to Bee Shower :) My mom and her close friend threw me an adorable shower with a bee theme. It was perfect and so much fun. So many close friends and family came and were SO generous to Merfbaby. I feel much more prepared having lots of baby things on hand now.

On My Mind: A million things. I woke up several times in the middle of the night last week thinking about work, and not Merfbaby. The changes at work have added a new element to maternity leave, but it’ll work out. It always does, right? I don’t have an exact plan on how it’s all going to go, but I’m not worrying about it too much just yet.

Merfbaby is 32 weeks!

About 56 days to go! Ah!

How I’m Feeling: A little cranky and emotional. Things just got a whole lot more busy at work and there’s a lot of unknown factors floating about, so I’m a little stressed about how things are going to come together. I KNOW it’s going to work out fine, but I FEEL overwhelmed. I didn’t sleep so great last night, lots of tossing and laying awake thinking about things. That could be why I’m feeling sort of cranky. I’m not normally irritated by little things, but these hormones have me on an other level.

Belly/Weight: Belly is LOW. I’ve carried low the whole pregnancy but it’s becoming more obvious the bigger my belly is getting. Not sure on weight. I know the baby is putting on more weight so that’ll show up on the scale soon.

Life Changes: Work changes are coming, which is good for job/career/professional life. When I broke my bionic ankle I was taken out of work for several months and I felt helpless and unhappy. It ended up being the perfect timing for everything, so I need to remember that having Merfbaby will be awesome, no matter where it falls in the timeline of work. It’s hard working freelance, and “on-demand” since things change all the time. Having a baby (physically) is unpredictable. Having so much unpredictability in my work and home life is a challenge. I’m blessed to have a job and a very understanding boss, but I put a lot of pressure on myself to do my job well. That’s going to have to take a second seat to family starting very soon, and I don’t want to feel guilty about it. It’s the never ending struggle for the work/life balance.

Movement: He loves to push out while he’s trying to get comfortable. I know he’s running out of room so his movements are getting much more intentional. When I wake up to roll over or adjust he’s always thumping around letting me know he’s awake too. I can tell there’s less room in there since I’m still short of breath sometimes and having to go potty constantly.

Sleep: Not sleeping as well as last week, but still getting a solid amount. Going to bed early is a big help. Even if my sleep is broken up I’m still getting a long time in bed. Sleeping in is becoming harder and harder. My internal clock is waking me earlier, and then Merfbaby starts moving around and it’s almost useless to lay there and try going back to sleep.

Cravings: A frosty from Wendy’s and a Decaf Misto from Starbucks :)

Exercise: Prenatal Yoga and walking. I like working out at home after work and yoga is becoming my new favorite. Lots of stretching and deep breathing. I didn’t make it to the gym this morning since I opted for another hour of sleep.

Favorite Pregnancy Moment this week: Opening a baby shower gift with Merfman :) It was crazy to hold the little outfits in our hands, and imagine that soon there will be a little human in them. Our little human.

On My Mind: I’m realizing that I won’t be pregnant much longer. Merfbaby has to come out eventually. I feel like I’ve been pregnant for so long since we found out very early. Soon I won’t have this big belly or my waddle, I’m calling it my pregnancy swagger ;) I don’t feel quite ready to meet Merfbaby yet, but I think in a few more weeks I’ll be there.

Merfbaby is 31 weeks!

Weighing around 3.3 lbs! And he’s getting ready for a big growth spurt.

How I’m Feeling: Really good. Merfman asked me today how I was doing and I said that I think compared to other women at 31 weeks I’ve got it easy :) I don’t feel huge or swollen, so that’s a plus. I had a emotional meltdown last Friday. It started over something small and then blew up, and I finally came out with “I’m scared.” Yep. That was it. I’m worried about the baby. It’s hard feeling so helpless to control anything to do with the baby. I can only take care of me, the rest is in God’s hands. I had a good ugly cry all over Merfman’s shoulder and we talked it out. I think that’s only the 2nd meltdown I’ve had the whole pregnancy, remember this? So I like to think I’ve spared him a whole bunch of crazy.

Belly/Weight: Up 2lbs at this week’s doctor appointment. I’m at a total of 28. Belly is getting more pointed looking? And throughout the day when he’s moving around it takes on odd shapes. Dr said he’s head down low and I feel his back and butt pushing out on my tummy a few times a day. It’s so strange to look down and see him all on one side.

Life Changes: It’s starting to feel “real” now. I know the end of my pregnancy is coming and the next phase will start soon enough. I don’t feel “done” with being pregnant. I feel like physically I’m not ready for Merfbaby to come, since we still have some work to do on the nursery. Emotionally, I don’t think we’ll ever feel ready. We’ll just take that one step at a time. That’s been my biggest prayer for Merfman and I during this pregnancy, that we would be strengthened as husband and wife and start to be shaped to become parents.

Movement: He’s pushing out with his butt/back more and more. I can feel him roll from one side of my tummy to the other. When the Dr was using the tool on my tummy to hear his heart he kicked her hand a good 5 times. He’s quick to let me know if he doesn’t like the way I’m laying. If I switch sides at night and pause on my back he kicks or if I roll to a new side he’ll kick too.

Sleep: Like a rock. Merfman got home after midnight last night and I was out. He gave me a kiss goodnight and I mumbled to respond. I couldn’t form words and told him this morning I remember him coming home like it was a dream. I’m thankful I’ve been sleeping so well. I wake up at least once a night for a potty break and I don’t even question it. I roll out of bed the moment I’m awake, do my thing and get back in bed. I figure the sooner I take my potty break the sooner I can get back to sleep.

Cravings: Berries and fruit. Since all the berries are in season and so much cheaper at the store I’m stocking up big time! I really like having some ice cream after dinner with some berries too :)

Exercise: Prenatal workouts. I found a few other videos on YouTube that I like so I do those after work when I get home. They are 3rd trimester workouts so there’s lots of sitting on exercise balls and leg/back work to help get things strong for labor. Maybe that’s another reason why I’ve been sleeping so well?

Favorite Pregnancy Moment this week: Talking to a co-worker who’s wife had their baby last week. I like hearing about different birth stories. I know each one is different but it’s interesting to know what other people go through. It’s so awesome to see how happy he is talking about his wife and son. Makes me all mushy inside :)

On My Mind: We made a lot of progress clearing out the nursery last weekend, tomorrow we’re going to pick out a paint color and Momma-son and I are going to Hobby Lobby (my first time!) to buy fabric and things. I’m excited. My first babyshower is next weekend too :)