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Day 16 – Dear Merfbaby

Dear Merfbaby,

I hope you don’t mind the name Merfbaby? I never really asked your opinion on the matter, just assumed it fit in well with the rest of the “Merf” family. You’re almost 3 months old, and you just keep growing. I’m starting to think you’ll be wearing toddler clothing before you’re 9 months old. It’s surprising, but not shocking that you’re a big boy, Merfman and I aren’t the smallest people in the world :)

Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about your future. Like what kind of kid you’ll be. How your voice will sound when you start to talk. What foods will be your favorite. If you’ll like music or art or reading. I can’t wait for your first trip to the beach, or to take you to swim lessons. I know Merfman is so excited to introduce you to the desert and dirt-bikes.

A few weeks ago our community lost a group of teenagers in a terrible auto accident. I made my heart ache. Knowing you won’t be this little human forever. Someday you’ll be out with your friends, making your own decisions. It’s hard to even comprehend now, since I have to do everything for you. But, not for long. Soon you’ll be exploring the world around you, growing into the person you’ll be forever.

Having you makes me hope I didn’t put Grandma and Grandpa through the ringer too bad when I was younger. Overall I was a good kid, but I’m sure they still worried about me.

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That quote…so much truth. I’m so excited for you to learn new things, but I know that which each new skill you’re moving closer to being your own person. Which is wonderful and scary for me. I just pray I can help teach you to be a kind, compassionate, brave Ordinary Radical.

Last night when I was laying on the floor with you while you practiced your tummy-time you started to fuss and protest. I explained that I know it seems hard right now, but you’re going to have to do a lot of things in life that aren’t easy. We have to keep doing them, that’s how we get better and grow.

Keep it up Merfbaby, I love you.

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Day 15 – 10 Signs You’re a New Mama

1. Coffee.Is.Necessary.

2. Blowdrying your hair is a luxury. You learn to love the wash and wear look.

3.  If breastfeeding, your shirt selection is completely based on ease of boobie access.

4. You find a new love for sandwiches and salads since they can never go cold.

5. Your non-dominant arm is buff from all that baby carrying.

6. You hear phantom baby cries when you’re in one of your 5 min showers.

7. The washing machine is always running.

8. You never turn on your TV because ain’t nobody got time for that.

9. Black shirts and baby drool don’t mix.

10. You thought life was pretty awesome before, then you met your tiny human and your heart exploded.

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Day 14 – Mama Grace

Monday’s, amiright?

I always feel like Monday’s and Tuesday’s crawl by, then the week slowly picks up steam until we’re at warp speed come the weekend and it’s over all too soon.

I don’t know about you but I spend my week fantasizing about the weekend.

Sleeping in. Big homemade breakfasts. A thorough house cleaning. Fully caught up on laundry. Meal Planning. Grocery Shopping. Food prep. Gym trips. Visits with Friends and Family. And rest. Lots of rest.

A girl can dream.

As a new Mama I’ll be lucky if I achieve one item on my weekend dream list. And you know what? That’s ok.

I’m working on giving myself some grace. You should too. Didn’t get it allllll done? Don’t fret. Focus on what you did do. Took an extra long shower? Spent some time just napping on the couch? Ordered take-out to save yourself a night of dishes? Grace, people. Soak it up.

In the bigger picture what really matters, what will you regret more? A pile of laundry passed up in favor of snuggling on the couch for family movie night? Sounds like a more than even trade.

I’m the biggest offender of this idea. Of letting things just be. I’m getting better though. Mostly due to a tiny human that helps me slow down and let it go.

So take your case of the Monday’s with a side of grace. I know I am, that and a big mug of coffee :)